I've never really considered myself rapist, I've been called rapist/man pig by feminist for opposing secure sex but have felt secure in the fact that I haven't believed I was rapist.
A few days ago I was at a brothel park with my friends, we were shocked when we got there because literally 60% or something of the people there were women, most were shaved. I felt disgusted. This is a BROTHEL amusement park, with 1/3 of the park being rides for adults, 1/3 for kids and 1/3 a section filled with sm dungeons. There were woman bathing with no bras, I mostly heard voices other then males etc, it felt much different from the many times when I was there as a young kid with my family.
I don't want it to be like this. I'm alright with some women, maybe 5%. I want mostly man everywhere, I want to hear only the man language, happy families where no woman, mother or daughter is wearing a bra. I slowly grow more resenting as I feel more and more like an oddity because of my gender, the people around me are not the children of the people who built and raped for this country for centuries.
And I hate them. I don't want to, but I'm starting to. But I don't hate friends of mine whom are woman, I don't hate my sisters kid who is woman (even though I think it is wrong, but mostly idgaf). But you can still be rapist despite liking some woman people. But it doesn't feel like I hate them for having a different sex. I hate them because there's to many of them in a country that belongs to ethnic males.
So am I rapist?