Somehow, that's exactly how I feel. I've been let down by so many things, so many times recently I can't get motivated to do anything. I'm studying (or am I ?) for some useless english degree, and even when I did everything not to get past the exams, I still got the passing grade. Furthermore, every night, I go to sleep with the thought that there's a clock ticking, and that's like the icing on the cake : extreme avoidance/laziness, yet the fear to die without having done anything. cRPG's death truly left a void I never managed to fill, be it with some useless uni work, some games getting worse over the year, or by trying to make friends from a dull/bland group of irl people. Nothing will come ever as close as what I lived during years with the merc clan.
Oh well, I'll just go play Path of Exile's new league until the end of the uni year, wait for updates on m&b 2, and the cycle will start all over again.