This quickly escalated into a depression log...
- 4 years old, dad goes to hospital for a few months
- 4 years old, getting my curly milk blonde hair cut, while in an inflatable childrens pool and being distracted by keys (apparently I was so fascinated by keys at that time of my life, I even made up a word for them, 'Goggli, goggli! ', semibrown, straight hair for the rest of my life
- 5 years old, walking down a slope, shoes with big, thick sole, road was rough asphalt with jagged rocks sticking out, getting pulled by gravity so start running, uncle tries to stop me, but is to far away so he gets the genious idea to say there, there's a bird's nest with a bird in it! turn my head round, shoes get stuck on the asphalt, lift them before falling back on the ground, knees first, blood everywhere
- 6 years old, witnessing a fight between older boys, bloody nose on one, before kindergarden teacher decides to break it up, first time I saw someone hurt somebody else, innocence gone
- 6 years old, we have to hold hands whenever we go out on a walk everyday, someone tells on me that I did something to him, don't know what, nonetheless I got separated from my best friend and go on walks in the iron grip of and old bitch till the end of the year
- 7 years, get asked at the end of kindergarden if I want to start playing an instrument when I go to 1st grade, eyes lit up and I say guitar, mom says that I probably meant it as a joke, I agree out of compliance, regret it to this day
- 7 years old, having a huge chunk of concrete held high over my head by an older kid, while another one held me down on my back, turns out they didn't want to kill me, but enjoy seeing someone scared
- 8 years old, end of school, get into a fight with a tard in the locker room, smashed his head multiple times on the thing you hang clothes on, it was pretty sharp, storm out of there leaving a flinching body on the floor of the locker room, noone saw the fight, few days before that, the same guy threw a heavy metal trash can, almost hit my face, also throws chairs at the teacher and scissors at other kids, made a scar on my arm with a key chain, I don't like keys anymore
- 8 years old, grandpa dies, found out a year later, first time I repress an emotion
- 9 years old, my cousin's fiancee with whom I was very close dies, because of a mishap during a trivial surgery
TBC