I prefer to think of it as tribute, like the Englishmen paid to the Danes, a payment so as to stop the Danes from raiding and visiting harm
but you still raid your parents fridge and purse, so where´s the tribute? Not shitting on the kitchen table every morning?
you´re living on welfare, but you´re turning it around in your mind, people are helping you, but you think that you´ve tricked them and instead of being grateful, you look down on them, which is /pol/-level of delusional. In the end it doesn´t matter if you´re proud as fuck about that or not, you´re on welfare, and that´s acceptable help if you´re at the very bottom in your life, but by far nothing to be proud of.
Get your shit together