Okay, the thing that I was banned for was like four days ago. It happened only because i went full retard on a guy that I fought with.
Look, He killed me a few times, I was raging all the time on him . I just didnt got any arguments at that moment, i just was insulting this guy with no reason. unbelievable. Thats a bad behaviour at all. after all i've just clicked on the ban poll at EU_3, the ban wasnt accepted, but the guy took an screenshot. im not going to say that i am sorry or something, it was just a bad day for me, was so silly to play crpg with that rage i had that day..
But the thing is it just lame for my clan that they have such a guy like me that is only looking for a problems. It was mistake to do that ban poll, ofc a lot of people are insulting with each other on the servers, so in that case i will not say 'sorry' or something like that.
Its funny because i just totally can't loose, this guy killed me, i shouldnt.. i shouldnt even fight with him , i knew it he'll beat me in some seconds.
the reason i want to be unbanned is that i love the guys from Barabe, i want to play with them. What I am trying to say is this mod means for me almost nothing, cause its only a game, but this game is like the only one way to communicate and play with those guys.
look, im not first time here, making a new unban essay.. its not the first time.. but i can say that was the last time i did such a silly thing..
also a lot of people will read this essay, a lot of people can say that on the servers im being very unmature or something. I just cant control my rage, im trying to. In a normal life im a nice guy, but in this game i became a someone that is only looking for a problems, some kind of fighting with other people. I've been always trying to tell other people that im better in all things..
However, i will not write anymore here. If administration will say that ive got a chance to prove my wrong, that ive got a chance to repair things i have destroyed, it will make me happy, because it will be a challenge for me to change my self. If im not going to be unbanned i will leave this community. Because writing the same story (this same essay with same shit inside) twice here is just not in my style..
Im not hoping that u will unbann me, i hope your decision will be fair.
Cheers.
