Apology to C-rpg players and community – Hemmor_le_roublard
I realise what I have done is to my own mistakes and bad judgments in situations where I have taken irrational actions towards people whom have not deserved to be afflicted by my choices, choices that I regret doing as consequences have been bans and negative reputation towards myself and sometimes clan members who I am affiliated with. This ban has recently made me understand and realise that the disrespectful ways in which I treat people has to change as attitudes to being, (well let’s say a douche) will not be tolerated or go unnoticed by the C-rpg community – in game and any other situations in which I may have offended other people/players.
Now based on the circumstances, I realize that making another offence will lead to heavier punishment towards myself and do not wish to be another subject of the matter in the forums ban request thread as it is excruciatingly embarrassing to my name, I feel disappointed with myself and hope the people I have insulted do not take it too personally as it was just an impulse of anger, rage and to be disrespectful towards the people who I had no right in which to insult.
I also realize that taking it out on people in game is ridiculous and pathetic and I should keep my thoughts and anger to myself, the outcome of the whole situation is very high priority to me as I value the playability of this mod as I have spent a long time partaking in the mod and building a profile in which I suit and I would be very upset in not being able to play anymore, I really do hope so that you see it in yourselves to forgive me, I am taking matters into my own hands to control myself as stupid errors where I take the time to hurt another person’s feelings is sad and it is very low to see myself stoop down to such a low level and to be judged as a person I don’t like to consider myself as.
The main point of the apology is to show you that I really do understand offending people can hurt as “Toon” calls me a stupid calls me a stupid tool (in Ts) a lot and it really hurts me. The apology is also to show you that I know now fully that my actions do have serious consequences and I promise I will not do it again as I have already offended to many and I wish I could take every harsh and rash comment I have said and regret all this stupid Team kills and attacks I have delivered as other people care about playing the game and care about ratio and their own profile in game.
I plan to make changed in ways in which I deal with anger, these changes will affect people in game positively as nothing negative will be said to other players anymore, I will keep the anger to myself in Ts where nobody will have any hurtful treatment by me, I know not all people may accept my apology but I hope if you and the community could accept the apology (as much people who can accept the apology) I would feel a large proportion better about myself and I would be extremely grateful. I’m deeply sorry if my outburst and I wish to never be in a ban thread again as it can also have an effect of my own wellbeing in the current clan I am in “Risen” and I do not wish to lose the chance to stay in this clan.
In the future I really hope to be seen as an accepted member of the C-rpg community as which I said it is important to my own status. Realizing the past mistakes I have made I will take it to my own personal initiative to apologise to the people who I know I have made an error in good sportsmanship and made the mistake to disrespect and slander them for minor issues in which I was unable to control myself, to be yet again on the forum for a disgraceful issues has severely damaged my own dignity. I really aspire to fix this by treating all others fairly and with respect, I also know if you manage to find a slight bit of remorse towards my actions that I will not offend anybody again and instead of whining when I lose to somebody in fair combat or even unfair combat I will compliment a fight where in cases I would insult them.
I can understand the anger that may be because of me as I should of learn from earlier punishment and tolerance that the C-rpg community has to out forwarding people like me. Out of the punishment you have given me it has made me realize I need to change my ways in which I act towards others who have no other personal issues against me, who I make my enemy unintentionally because of the lack of discipline I allowed myself to live by. I know it is best to keep everyone friendly towards myself as it could have long term effects towards my clan, friends and me.
Such things as not being able to participate in strategus battles for people that I have slandered and been unkind towards, it may also have effects on the way in which my clan treat me as past people in the clan have been kicked out because of the way they have treated others or there clan makes by taking actions that have not been consented b the clan and unauthorised. I am truly sorry for my actions to everybody that I personally offended and I hope that this apology will give you the opportunity to realise that I have realized my mistakes and will be eternally grateful if you give me the chance to prove to you that I have changed, I am sorry. I am also grateful being given the chance to be able to prove myself.
