My unbann essay.

[Grey]

To be brutally honest, I got 1,350 words into my essay, entitled

"How absolute power corrupts absolutely within a nepotic community with no social or administrative checks or balances, using G. Orwell's template for mental indoctrination by a ruling class and T. Pratchett's template for mobmentality IQ's of the lowest denominator."

Then I refreshed the thread entitled CMPx. All I can be bothered to write is this:

I am an even-minded and thoughtful person. I like to see everyone's side to an issue. I hate rash action, I fear making the wrong decision, and I am blessed/cursed with a social conscience.

The lies that you all spout about me infuriate so I reply inkind, and meanly. But these reactions have lead the social midden that is this community to worsen the lies. Not once has any issue I have been involved in been raised by me. Not once has a member of the admin community approached me for my side of any issue, nor has my word ever been taken. But one, seemingly arbitrary day, my word went from merely being ignored to being taken as definite mistruth and misrepresentation of facts.

I read this:

*Previously caught (numerous times?) trying to FRAME and implicit other players by trolling them into teamkilling him.
Caught repeatedly bumping and accidentally shooting me myself. (Wonder how many others he's done that to, if he can do it to a known hardliner admin with such ease)
*You are not a funny troll even.. (Like Panos or Fasader)


and I had to stifle laughter: Never once have I even tried to frame anyone. Never once have you caught me shooting or bumping you. You may honestly believe what you have just written there... but since I don't even ride a horse....not really sure how you can begin to justify your claims.

That the actions of players such as Panos are considered acceptable was a large part of my essay. Players who purposefully aggrevate others...for fun...I can't even begin to state how despicable I find them...and that they are lauded for what is essentially just the behaviour of a badly raised toddler...

I only ever wanted to play a mod in a way that was fair for all, and seeing the very visible shortcomings of the administration of this mod, I occasionally used to try to bring morally reprehensible behaviour into check myself. This brought me into conflict with the admin on many occasions, and ultimately led to the views the community seems to hold on me.

All that remains for me to write is that I quote Gorath: The threat of physical violence should be present in all things. Otherwise we get a swarm of bundle of sticks children like the majority of the cRPG/Internet population...

I would extend this to the admin and playerbase: If any of you ever DOES manage to get out into what some term "The real world" and support your family, etc. I hope to encounter you, in real life, and I'll have the pleasure of pushing your face  through the back of your head if you try and treat anyone the way you have treated me here, you hipocritical liars. I fucking hate bullies, you all make my skin creep.

Now go get a fucking job.

[Tears of Destiny]

2/5 for threatening the readers, and saying that you hate rash action despite on numerous occasions admitting to acting before thinking, such as retaliating against team wounders etc.

Far too hostile, and seems more of a rant then an apology.

[Thomek]

I'll give you another chance to write a proper essay when you have calmed down.

But for now, go get a fucking new key and say goodbye to your char.

[Tennenoth]

I am an even-minded and thoughtful person. I like to see everyone's side to an issue. I hate rash action, I fear making the wrong decision, and I am blessed/cursed with a social conscience.

In no single way are you even minded or thoughtful, every single post I have seen is your opinion and your own views not even considering anyone else might be right, what would be best to do or how to get through this without insulting anyone!

The definition I have been brought up with of "an even mind" is that they do not get under pressure or that their thoughts are not clouded by anger/pressure/sadness or whatever othe emotion that you may happen to have at the time, I cannot see this in you, you attack cmp for doing his job, you make a silly attempt at an unban essay, a more than fair "get out of gaol" card from Thomek and you throw it back in his face. That my friend, is not even minded or thoughtful.

Secondly, if you fear making the wrong decision so much, why put so little thought into making this essay knowing only too well that it will lead to worse things for you, it'd idiotic at the very least, unless the "right decision" in your eyes was to be perma-banned.

A social conscience..? Sure there is trolling, sure there are people you're not going to get along with but you make the best of what it is, you avoid talking to them, you banter with them or you just plain ignore them like the little twats they are. There's having a social conscience and there's being bloody sensible...

Although I have little standing within this issue, I was willing to help forgive, I offered you words of advice, Thomek, as a gesture of good will gave you an essay ban rather than a permanent one and all you do is throw it back in his face as I mentioned before.

"Think before you act." That would be a wonderful phrase to use right now.

If this seems harsh to you, then it probably is because i'm rather fed up of you blatent disregard for the rules, the community, the admins or even the way things work around here, if you can't tell from this post, in the most possible posh way "you oblivious fool."

[Grey]

In no single way are you even minded or thoughtful, every single post I have seen is your opinion and your own views not even considering anyone else might be right, what would be best to do or how to get through this without insulting anyone!

The definition I have been brought up with of "an even mind" is that they do not get under pressure or that their thoughts are not clouded by anger/pressure/sadness or whatever othe emotion that you may happen to have at the time, I cannot see this in you, you attack cmp for doing his job, you make a silly attempt at an unban essay, a more than fair "get out of gaol" card from Thomek and you throw it back in his face. That my friend, is not even minded or thoughtful.

Secondly, if you fear making the wrong decision so much, why put so little thought into making this essay knowing only too well that it will lead to worse things for you, it'd idiotic at the very least, unless the "right decision" in your eyes was to be perma-banned.

A social conscience..? Sure there is trolling, sure there are people you're not going to get along with but you make the best of what it is, you avoid talking to them, you banter with them or you just plain ignore them like the little twats they are. There's having a social conscience and there's being bloody sensible...

Although I have little standing within this issue, I was willing to help forgive, I offered you words of advice, Thomek, as a gesture of good will gave you an essay ban rather than a permanent one and all you do is throw it back in his face as I mentioned before.

"Think before you act." That would be a wonderful phrase to use right now.

If this seems harsh to you, then it probably is because i'm rather fed up of you blatent disregard for the rules, the community, the admins or even the way things work around here, if you can't tell from this post, in the most possible posh way "you oblivious fool."

You say "worse things"....and the right descision: Yes, I feel that refusing to be told I'm a liar is the right descision: as to breaking the rules: I actively broke the rules ONCE: I exploited on DTV. Once. Of the players caught out there: maybe 10% of those I saw there over the time I was there were punished. The rest of the time, my "crimes" have always been in defense of myself or others. As to here on the forum: its a public forum: my opinion is only ever gonna be that: MY OPINION. I dont ever try to tell someone else that they are not welcome to their own opinion, I have mine and theirs is, well, theirs.

To what you wrote and to this

But for now, go get a fucking new key and say goodbye to your char

I dont need to buy a new key, I have owned 3 version of MB: WB for...well since WB was released pretty much...as I have always stated during each of my bans: I have stayed away not because I was forced to, I stay away out of respect for an admin's descisions.

I'll give you another chance to write a proper essay when you have calmed down.

But for now, go get a fucking new key and say goodbye to your char.

First, l2write when you flame you little fascist: It's "Get a new fucking key" not "a fucking new key"

As to what you wrote: from your lies earlier, I guess you need to organise you OWN mind before you guess at the contents of mine: seperate the fact from the fiction. As to the contents of MY mind: YOU CANNOT KNOW. But since you seem to want to know: at no point during this thread of the previous was I anything BUT calm: What would I have to be angry about? I'm mildly upset, because even though I dont expect much from you, you have still dissapointed me Thomek. Take it easy man.

[cmp]

Honestly, Grey, I'm disappointed. I bet everything on "very polite misunderstood victim", and instead you went for... this.

Bye.

PS: if you get a new key, try to be a little less obvious