take me serious
@ lombard yeah, I was venting in game chat about something very tragic that has happened in my life in October, which is also why I came back to cRPG to get my mind off of life. While I understand I trolled a lot in the past and sometimes this day, I was being serious and Kulin was being supportive and I was looking to thank him in private but could not find a way to contact him.
@umbra damn, that sucks I was wondering why I could not find him :(
I guess since I vented about it in public in game chat I can say it here. My mother was taken away from me very suddenly and way too soon in a car accident on Oct. 5th. I have been handling it very bad, abusing drugs and alcohol way worse than I ever have and pretty much been an emotional wreck daily. Things have been looking up a little but god damn does life fucking suck.Sorry for your loss, but I have no sympathy for you abusing drugs and alcohol. Sure you may have the odd few nights where you're sitting in sulking but you're the only person who can change that. Find a new hobby or something to take your mind off it.
Sorry for your loss, but I have no sympathy for you abusing drugs and alcohol. Sure you may have the odd few nights where you're sitting in sulking but you're the only person who can change that. Find a new hobby or something to take your mind off it.
We're all gunna make it brah
@prpavi thanks, I will get through it it has just been incredibly rough. I guess since I vented about it in public in game chat I can say it here. My mother was taken away from me very suddenly and way too soon in a car accident on Oct. 5th. I have been handling it very bad, abusing drugs and alcohol way worse than I ever have and pretty much been an emotional wreck daily. Things have been looking up a little but god damn does life fucking suck.
@Vibe I will keep an eye out for him later might log on IRC to see if he comes on, thanks
Been there roughly 2 years ago, Poop...
It actually does get better with time.
Tho, even now it still hits me sometimes and it gets rough for a day. But it really gets better.(click to show/hide)
@prpavi thanks, I will get through it it has just been incredibly rough. I guess since I vented about it in public in game chat I can say it here. My mother was taken away from me very suddenly and way too soon in a car accident on Oct. 5th. I have been handling it very bad, abusing drugs and alcohol way worse than I ever have and pretty much been an emotional wreck daily. Things have been looking up a little but god damn does life fucking suck.
@Vibe I will keep an eye out for him later might log on IRC to see if he comes on, thanks
how am i being an arse you daft cunt, all i did was tell him not to take drugs and alcohol.
Ps seems jto always finds a way to be an arse
tldr: I love you guys and keep being the awesome people you are.
Dont worry man, It gets better. Even though I was 12 when I lost my younger brother, I grieved in a way that was acceptable for 12 year old, became antisocial in school and sometimes still acted like he was still there. Point being, it is difficult to lose a loved one no matter the age,and overtime there is a light in your gloomy world; it just takes time to figure out what that light is.
Man I really don't know what to say guys.
I have been a member of this community since 2010. I know a lot of people do not like me for shit I pulled in the past on the market and general in game stuff, but I want you to know this really means a lot to me that people I have been gaming with for over 4 years are so supportive. This has definitely been a real awakening, I have changed a lot of my ways (no you guys arent getting off that easy I will still fuck with yall in game because it is fun).
I wish I could reply to you all individually, I am sorry to all of those that have lost close loved ones as well. My mom was like my best friend, we were really close. While I may have been appearing to have a happy exterior in game and on the forums carrying on the way I always have, its been real fucking dark in my world. This community is really something else, seeing the support from you all genuinely brought a smile to my face and I thank you all for that. I know it is going to be a long road of recovery for me mentally. This is the single worst thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life. I do not even know if the full scale of what happened has fully hit me yet.
You guys are awesome, keep being that way. Coming back to cRPG even before the support I am receiving from you guys now has been very therapeutic. Maybe it is returning to my old roots giving me a sense of the old times that is helping. I am not going anywhere, I am sure I will recover, while its hard and I know it is stupid of me to abuses the substances I have been, it gives me a sense of escape. Some of you that I am close to know I suffer from addiction to certain things, this is nothing new. Life sucks. I really want to get better and kick a lot of my dirty habits. All I ask is you guys please not judge me, but rather understand. It is not easy to kick habits like this. I will be seeking professional help in a while but right now I just need an escape. Yeah, it is a shitty thing for me to do especially when I need to take care of my dad due to his injuries in the accident. My problems have not gotten in the way of me taking care of him though. I want him to heal and get better.
Anyway sorry for the wall of text.
tldr: I love you guys and keep being the awesome people you are.
Well, computer games are an awesome escape. I use them to escape real life responsibilities and my girlfriends want of attention all the time. I know it's not nearly the same case, but it should work regardless.True.
just cuz the dude has been getting drunk and high for a couple months after some fucked up shit doesn't mean you gotta lecture him on how drugs are bad, god damn DARE cops up in here
poop my worthless advice is to keep up your audio production and any other creative hobbies you got. great way to stay focus and channel temporary emotions good or bad into lifelong achievements to you know catalogue your experiences and some way to meaningfully record or even make something important or beautiful to others out of whatever you are going through now.
dunno how much you still mess around with audio shit but you seemed good at mixing troll songs and crap. honestly in the near future I might even contact you for some help interviewing you or something like that about internet culture, trolling, etc if you are interested for an article/podcast/something I'm working on.
stay strong bro, at least you are enjoying something like cRPG or these forums, finding enjoyment in anything is a sign you aren't really clinically depressed and are just going through something bad but not permanent. but don't forget about you know therapists and psychiatrists and shit if you are someplace bad and need a boost getting out from a source that isn't just within yourself. getting ADHD meds and seeing a therapist for a couple months then moving to a new city got me in a much better place personally.
drugs are bad,
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I take it you haven't seen The Wolf of Wall Street.