Hey Kulin could not find your cRPG profile so I just wanted to say

[Prpavi]

@prpavi thanks, I will get through it it has just been incredibly rough. I guess since I vented about it in public in game chat I can say it here. My mother was taken away from me very suddenly and way too soon in a car accident on Oct. 5th. I have been handling it very bad, abusing drugs and alcohol way worse than I ever have and pretty much been an emotional wreck daily. Things have been looking up a little but god damn does life fucking suck.

@Vibe I will keep an eye out for him later might log on IRC to see if he comes on, thanks

Sorry to hear that man. My condolences.

I've also had my fair share of close family members deaths and a life that is somewhat out of the ordinary. Yes it does get better, I've always been sober during the worst times, but when they were over then the substance abuse always started, was probably in shock. A few drinks is understandable ofc but try to keep it under control because you might find yourself in a bigger problem after the sorrow is gone, alcohol and drugs don't help your depression afterwards, they just make it worse.

Stay strong, grief and then move on!

Love, Prpavi

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Ps seems jto always finds a way to be an arse

how am i being an arse you daft cunt, all i did was tell him not to take drugs and alcohol.

@Bronto
Ofcourse people deal with stuff their own way but drugs and alcohol can only lead to bad things, losing house, job, friends ect. After a while you alienate your self and that leads to suicide.
Sitting in side all day feeling sorry for your self ain't gunna help anyone especially yourself.

Put it this way bronto. If he doesn't take care of him self, who will?

[Jona]

Was not expecting to find such a feels trip in this thread... damn. 

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Stay strong you guys.

[Konrax]

Sorry to hear that my friend, I have also lost a parent suddenly when I was very young and can relate to the pain you feel.

The drugs and booze will only make you feel better for a short time, until the rest of your life starts to suffer from it. Do yourself a favour and cut it down and just feel what you need to feel and get past it. It isn't easy either way.

All the best.

[WITCHCRAFT]

I was glad to see you around on the servers again, but I knew something like this had happened since you mentioned it then. Even with all you are going through you put on a good face and had me chuckling as we trolled each other in chat.

It's easier to make others smile than to make yourself smile. Hope you're doing alright. 

[Ikarus]

yeh, Kulin´s not the annoying butt anymore he used to be, never thought that he´d change

best wishes to ya, poophammer, keep it up!

[AwesomeHail]

Keep it up, Poop!

sorry for being such a dick to you :\

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Don't get into harddrugs, that will reallu destroy you, and maybe the ones you have left too

[Grumbs]

I've seen some messed up documentaries on alcohol and hard drug abuse. Alcoholism is horrendous and tragic. They all seem to have some event that sets them off down that path, and in the end all that matters is the addiction. They didn't actually solve any problems in their lives. Everyone dies, and everyone has people close to them die. But they all more or less get through it in the end without drugs. Also the internet is a really bad place to try to get advice on this stuff - should stick to close real life friends not people on a gaming forum

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[Algarn]

Condoleances. Don't use drugs and stay strong, like others said. Don't give you death aswell because they died.

[Kalam]

Your trollishness has never really been malicious, and for what it's worth from an internet stranger who heard your early morning rants (and you listened to mine, too) for at least a year, I'm sorry. Feel free to vent, you just have to tell me what teamspeak/mumble server you're in.

[POOPHAMMER]

Man I really don't know what to say guys.

I have been a member of this community since 2010. I know a lot of people do not like me for shit I pulled in the past on the market and general in game stuff, but I want you to know this really means a lot to me that people I have been gaming with for over 4 years are so supportive. This has definitely been a real awakening, I have changed a lot of my ways (no you guys arent getting off that easy I will still fuck with yall in game because it is fun).

I wish I could reply to you all individually, I am sorry to all of those that have lost close loved ones as well. My mom was like my best friend, we were really close. While I may have been appearing to have a happy exterior in game and on the forums carrying on the way I always have, its been real fucking dark in my world. This community is really something else, seeing the support from you all genuinely brought a smile to my face and I thank you all for that. I know it is going to be a long road of recovery for me mentally. This is the single worst thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life. I do not even know if the full scale of what happened has fully hit me yet.

You guys are awesome, keep being that way. Coming back to cRPG even before the support I am receiving from you guys now has been very therapeutic. Maybe it is returning to my old roots giving me a sense of the old times that is helping. I am not going anywhere, I am sure I will recover, while its hard and I know it is stupid of me to abuses the substances I have been, it gives me a sense of escape. Some of you that I am close to know I suffer from addiction to certain things, this is nothing new. Life sucks. I really want to get better and kick a lot of my dirty habits. All I ask is you guys please not judge me, but rather understand. It is not easy to kick habits like this. I will be seeking professional help in a while but right now I just need an escape. Yeah, it is a shitty thing for me to do especially when I need to take care of my dad due to his injuries in the accident. My problems have not gotten in the way of me taking care of him though. I want him to heal and get better.

Anyway sorry for the wall of text.

tldr: I love you guys and keep being the awesome people you are.

[GOBBLINKINGREATLEADER]

best of luck, sorry to hear that bruh having a parent taken from me would hurt so bad

i am also a budding alcoholic because life is just impossibly stressful, and i sympathize with your pain

we're all escaping IRL together here, we can't forget that

best of luck

[Sharpe]

tldr: I love you guys and keep being the awesome people you are.

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Dont worry man, It gets better. Even though I was 12 when I lost my younger brother, I grieved in a way that was acceptable for 12 year old, became antisocial in school and sometimes still acted like he was still there. Point being, it is difficult to lose a loved one no matter the age,and overtime there is a light in your gloomy world; it just takes time to figure out what that light is.

[AwesomeHail]

Dont worry man, It gets better. Even though I was 12 when I lost my younger brother, I grieved in a way that was acceptable for 12 year old, became antisocial in school and sometimes still acted like he was still there. Point being, it is difficult to lose a loved one no matter the age,and overtime there is a light in your gloomy world; it just takes time to figure out what that light is.

The only light,

c-RPG.

[Vibe]

Man I really don't know what to say guys.

I have been a member of this community since 2010. I know a lot of people do not like me for shit I pulled in the past on the market and general in game stuff, but I want you to know this really means a lot to me that people I have been gaming with for over 4 years are so supportive. This has definitely been a real awakening, I have changed a lot of my ways (no you guys arent getting off that easy I will still fuck with yall in game because it is fun).

I wish I could reply to you all individually, I am sorry to all of those that have lost close loved ones as well. My mom was like my best friend, we were really close. While I may have been appearing to have a happy exterior in game and on the forums carrying on the way I always have, its been real fucking dark in my world. This community is really something else, seeing the support from you all genuinely brought a smile to my face and I thank you all for that. I know it is going to be a long road of recovery for me mentally. This is the single worst thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life. I do not even know if the full scale of what happened has fully hit me yet.

You guys are awesome, keep being that way. Coming back to cRPG even before the support I am receiving from you guys now has been very therapeutic. Maybe it is returning to my old roots giving me a sense of the old times that is helping. I am not going anywhere, I am sure I will recover, while its hard and I know it is stupid of me to abuses the substances I have been, it gives me a sense of escape. Some of you that I am close to know I suffer from addiction to certain things, this is nothing new. Life sucks. I really want to get better and kick a lot of my dirty habits. All I ask is you guys please not judge me, but rather understand. It is not easy to kick habits like this. I will be seeking professional help in a while but right now I just need an escape. Yeah, it is a shitty thing for me to do especially when I need to take care of my dad due to his injuries in the accident. My problems have not gotten in the way of me taking care of him though. I want him to heal and get better.

Anyway sorry for the wall of text.

tldr: I love you guys and keep being the awesome people you are.

Well, computer games are an awesome escape. I use them to escape real life responsibilities and my girlfriends want of attention all the time. I know it's not nearly the same case, but it should work regardless.