What Blueknight got on his profile is so true : If you run, you'll only die tired. If tomorrow, I know that I'll get killed, I will have no regrets, I'll accept it. If I get murdered, I'll simply smile to the guy holding the gun, and tell him a day, it will be his turn. If you have to die, then, do it quickly, or just try to take people you hate, things you hate with you. When I see people being tortured for days until they die, people exploited, etc ... I simply can't say : life is too beautiful to die, it's quite the opposite actually. When you realise you got no power at all, it's worth nothing to stay alive when it's time. People fear death because they can't accept the fact they aren't immortal, of course, I'd accept to live a thousand years, but I don't want to be eternal, do you imagine ? Watching the world, people you meet, dispapearing, one after one. I'll enjoy myself my life, with every kind of sin, and be trying to make people around me happy to live, but I'll also try to tell them : profit while you can, because tomorrow, you may not be here anymore. When I saw my grand father dying after 48hours of agony at hospital, having his own corpse destroyed by acid from his stomach, I would have simply wanted to die immediatly if I was him.
Profit of life while you can, try to avoid shit around you, tell people you love that you love them, and accept your death, without any thought about if yes or no there will be something after, good or bad, because it will not be the case. This is all I can tell you, even if I'm pretty young, since I already had more nightmares and shit happening to me than everyone of my age.