I think you translated this with google or something else, but I think you complain about the fact that you get raped because you can´t afford high tier equipment and see all the other people around with this expensive equipment.
YES, it is nomal. cRpg is no easy game for beginners, it will take you quite a while to gain enough money to afford both better equipment and the upkeep you have to pay for it.
But basicly, the most important thing in this game is skill. Skill can´t be bought in the shop, you have to work hard to improve your skill.
Just search the forums, there are a lot of threads which explain what to do in order to gain enough money and what is the most effective way to practice this game.
But actually everything is based on this formula: Play, and you will get better.
(sorry, I would explain it more detailled but I´m tired as fuck
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