This videogame is quite literally the last bastion of enjoyment I have in life.
I want nothing to do with people IRL anymore.
Opening myself up and being an emotional person was clearly the biggest mistake I have ever made in my life and now I am facing the consequences.
Opening yourself up was not a mistake or a bad decision. It humanized you to a lot of people.
Love you man, but you need to take a break for a while. you'll look back on this in a different light.
So much of us care for you! You're a great guy, always fun and laughing in teamspeak, you're a really bright guy.
You'll be amazed at how much free time you have.
Don't you dare go watch tv or sit mindlessly watching youtube videos for hours~
See you say that, and you may or not may joking, but I've put the knife to my throat on several occasions.
And you're stronger than that knife. Because life is amazing. Have you ever gone out and looked at a tree? Holy shit they are amazing.
Look at yourself and how complex and cool you are. You played a fucking
video game with people all over the world and showed your dominance as cavalry over them, that's insane!
Life is crazy man, when you start thinking about it all.
I spent 3 hours last night unable to sleep because my mind was entranced on fucking electricity and the electromagnetic force. SO simple but such implications...