im supposed to just stop playing when im last and let the others kill me.
In a word, Yes.
I dont see any others do this when they are last and against impossible odds.
You also don't see when a lancer is about to couch you, when people are sneaking up on you, many things, I would imagine in real life too. Your awereness is bad and at any other class but horse ranged you would be destroyed again and again. As it is you play the class with most reward vs least risk, and you don't sit quiet, everything from your name to your chat ingame is designed purely to inflame. So well done, you got what you wanted.
It's sad that people dislike you more than me even, and I go out of my way time and again to irritate and annoy people in chat, on forums, and ingame.