If life is pain to you, then you're doing something wrong. Pain is part of life, just like joy and happiness. For the most part you can avoid pain, when not possible stick through it. Eventually it will go away, if not then the worst thing that can happen to you is death. Do not wish for death if there are possibilities things will get better. In most cases chances are pretty high that life will turn out good.
Xant is probably feeling pain because he took his internet persona too far and is now eating him inside. 2016 is year of change, Xant dearie.