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Havelle's Unban Essay
« on: April 20, 2018, 02:55:03 pm »
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I've lived in exile so long, I don't know where I'd start if I were to come back.

I've been a dick, I've been a toxic player. I can't say I've been an overall negative influence in the community. I've played this game for 6 years. Its one of the only video games I like, sadly. I've got to know a lot of players in the community, I took a personal interest in a lot of them and consider some to be some damn good internet friends. I often helped new players and gave out gold back when I was a rich man.

I've done a lot of shitty things though, for the sake of my own sick laughter. A couple things come to mind, purposefully griefing other players, implicating admins in irl money loom sales, avoiding bans. Most of all, and what the admins really want me to address was my treatment of Dupre. We had a real feud there, and I won't pretend it was all one sided, sit and grovel and talk about what a shit head I was. Frankly, I'm not sorry. Not sorry in a guilty way, although I am sorry we could not get along. Long time players should help out the people developing, updating and mantaining the mod, and I did not do that. I was actively antagonist to the mod.

I will apologize to James, who I implicated simply to give Dupre grief. I apologize for any shittiness I've shown towards his clan. I was definitely not the person I am today. I've grown up a lot in my absence. I don't want to give people shit for no reason. James is a good guy who always wanted the mod to flourish and provide a welcoming environment and sense of camaraderie for new players.

I will apologize to Sparvico, who I impersonated to spout out racial epitaphs. Sparvico is a good guy and someone I always enjoyed playing with. I shouldn't have done that to an internet buddy. I thought I would be seen through immediately, and I was, but that does not excuse it.

Mostly, I apologize to anyone who's time playing this game I may have ruined. It was shitty. I knew it was shitty, which fueled some kind of sick sense of humor I possessed at the time.

I won't excuse anything I did. I don't plan on doing it again. I just want to play the game with my friends and enjoy myself. I don't want to insult people or be a dickhead and make it any harder on the admin team to do their job, whatever that job is. I want to keep my head low and play strat with my friends and participate in forum arguments with actual racists.

I guess I just don't have a lot to say on the subject. I've just matured a bit. I've had a lot of different things happen to me irl since I've been gone, I just don't feel like that same dude anymore who just wants to be shitty to people.

Hope this is what you wanted. If this don't get me unbanned, see u fine folks @ bannerlord
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #1 on: April 20, 2018, 03:20:03 pm »
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Thumbs up from me. Though the final decision is up to Dupre.

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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #2 on: April 20, 2018, 03:27:26 pm »
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What were the man's crimes that he could not be forgiven?

Alas are we all knights of honor if one has strayed from the path so long is he not able to return?

I beseech the good men of this counsel to grant leniency in these end of times

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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #3 on: April 20, 2018, 03:28:47 pm »
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move this to the unban essay section so I can +1 it?
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #4 on: April 20, 2018, 03:30:29 pm »
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move this to the unban essay section so I can +1 it?

Good call.

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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #5 on: April 20, 2018, 04:56:42 pm »
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Nice work Havelle. I can only approve and support getting you back into the mod. I've never had any beef with you and am glad you realized that going down the path you were was not the right one. I'll message Dupre today if he hasn't contacted you already and see what we can do.

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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #6 on: April 20, 2018, 05:08:15 pm »
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Very nice, would read again 5/7.

Mr. Dupre, free this man!
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #7 on: April 20, 2018, 05:08:43 pm »
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #8 on: April 20, 2018, 08:14:59 pm »
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It would be nice to have Havelle back so I can drunkenly "accidentally" TK him again.
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #9 on: April 20, 2018, 08:25:07 pm »
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I will apologize to Sparvico, who I impersonated to spout out racial epitaphs.
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #10 on: April 20, 2018, 11:29:13 pm »
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don't bother coming back c-rpg died already
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #11 on: April 21, 2018, 12:19:29 am »
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It is signed, I can only approved.
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #12 on: April 21, 2018, 03:09:37 am »
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idk if i'm allowed to post this but you should have your characters and some of the gear back? Apparently horns did some funky stuff. Good luck and god speed
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #13 on: April 21, 2018, 03:23:13 am »
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I just don't feel like that same dude anymore who just wants to be shitty to people.

Maybe you can still squeeze in a prank or two here and there?
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Re: Havelle's Unban Essay
« Reply #14 on: April 21, 2018, 05:24:45 am »
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idk if i'm allowed to post this but you should have your characters and some of the gear back? Apparently horns did some funky stuff. Good luck and god speed

Yep, this is exactly the purpose of giving people ultimate power in the mod - abusing players as part of some sort of rage-fueled revenge. Absolutely disgusting; and it's quite ridiculous that Havelle is expected to write this when someone like BADPLAYER was let back into the mod with no fuss from Diapre & co, but whatever it takes to get him back into the (lack of) action.
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