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Closed Requests / My unbann essay.
« on: November 07, 2011, 02:33:22 am »To be brutally honest, I got 1,350 words into my essay, entitled
"How absolute power corrupts absolutely within a nepotic community with no social or administrative checks or balances, using G. Orwell's template for mental indoctrination by a ruling class and T. Pratchett's template for mobmentality IQ's of the lowest denominator."
Then I refreshed the thread entitled CMPx. All I can be bothered to write is this:
I am an even-minded and thoughtful person. I like to see everyone's side to an issue. I hate rash action, I fear making the wrong decision, and I am blessed/cursed with a social conscience.
The lies that you all spout about me infuriate so I reply inkind, and meanly. But these reactions have lead the social midden that is this community to worsen the lies. Not once has any issue I have been involved in been raised by me. Not once has a member of the admin community approached me for my side of any issue, nor has my word ever been taken. But one, seemingly arbitrary day, my word went from merely being ignored to being taken as definite mistruth and misrepresentation of facts.
I read this:
*Previously caught (numerous times?) trying to FRAME and implicit other players by trolling them into teamkilling him.
Caught repeatedly bumping and accidentally shooting me myself. (Wonder how many others he's done that to, if he can do it to a known hardliner admin with such ease)
*You are not a funny troll even.. (Like Panos or Fasader)
and I had to stifle laughter: Never once have I even tried to frame anyone. Never once have you caught me shooting or bumping you. You may honestly believe what you have just written there... but since I don't even ride a horse....not really sure how you can begin to justify your claims.
That the actions of players such as Panos are considered acceptable was a large part of my essay. Players who purposefully aggrevate others...for fun...I can't even begin to state how despicable I find them...and that they are lauded for what is essentially just the behaviour of a badly raised toddler...
I only ever wanted to play a mod in a way that was fair for all, and seeing the very visible shortcomings of the administration of this mod, I occasionally used to try to bring morally reprehensible behaviour into check myself. This brought me into conflict with the admin on many occasions, and ultimately led to the views the community seems to hold on me.
All that remains for me to write is that I quote Gorath: The threat of physical violence should be present in all things. Otherwise we get a swarm of bundle of sticks children like the majority of the cRPG/Internet population...
I would extend this to the admin and playerbase: If any of you ever DOES manage to get out into what some term "The real world" and support your family, etc. I hope to encounter you, in real life, and I'll have the pleasure of pushing your face through the back of your head if you try and treat anyone the way you have treated me here, you hipocritical liars. I fucking hate bullies, you all make my skin creep.
Now go get a fucking job.